Not entirely sure what's going on.

Bookworm · Curious About Ghosts Joined: 01 Sep 2007 Posts: 4

Okay, now, I do believe in spirits, but I'm not sure if that's what I'm encountering.

When I was little, as in 7 years old or so, my uncle lived in a house that had been previously owned by a serial killer. I'd slept there many times and, although I hesitate to confirm that I experienced what I experienced being that it was 13 years ago and small children might very well blow things out of proportion.. but at night, I would always see a pink glow coming from the bathroom. The serial killer in question was shot dead infront of that bathroom by an attempted victim, which I wasn't aware of until I was 14 & my uncle had already sold the house.

Fast-forward when I'm in junior high. I was teased quite a lot for being different, and I began to have.. visions, I suppose, of harming people. Now, I am not a violent person by nature - I've never intentionally physically harmed anyone, nor do I want to, but I would walk down the hallways in my junior high and I'd blink and see blood everywhere and then blink again and it'd be back to normal. Eventually, I was pulled from public school by my mother, and these events stopped.

In 2004, my beloved cat of 10 years passed away of kidney failure. A few days later, I had the weirdest experience - I felt like I'd woken up and my cat was standing on my nightstand (and the cats weren't ever allowed in my room due to fragile materials) leaning over and licking my face, with this beautiful white glow around him. I could have sworn I was awake but then I blinked and "woke up" I suppose and he was, obviously, not there anymore.

Also, when my aunt passed away after a long battle with cancer, my mother + I began to visit the cemetery with my understandably distaught grandmother to her mausoleum door on a regular basis. Her crypt is at the very back of the mausoleum. I feel very at peace there, except for every time I stand at her door, I see this man out of the corner of my eye - old, in a black raincoat and black rainhat, watching me. He doesn't move, but every time I look up, he's gone. There is NOTHING in this area I'm seeing him in that could be mistaken for a large human form, nothing at all. I thought it was just my mind playing tricks on me but I would see him every time I was there.

A former friend suggested that I might be sensitive to spirits, but I'm not entirely sure. I know that I am really sensitive to energy, I can feel what I guess is.. imprints of emotion on the surroundings.

But what I don't get is.. Late at night, randomly, I'll just feel.. so completely alone and depressed. I'm not sad in my daily life, at all - I'm a VERY happy person, and I've never been codependent.. but it'll be like, the friend I was talking to on the phone will go to bed or something and I just suddenly feel overwhelmed and alone.

Other times, even if I'm home alone, I'll feel a prescence like someone else is here, watching me. Do you know how the energy of the room changes a little when someone else walks in? Like, even if you were blind and deaf, you could sense someone had just walked in? I get that feeling A LOT, even if nobody has just walked in, even if nobody else is even in the house.

At night, in that.. state shortly before you fall asleep, where you're still aware of your surroundings but you know you're about to fall asleep, I hear things and I feel things. I realize it could just be dreams, but the thing is.. I'll still be listening to the TV (which I keep on at night, I can't sleep in silence, I feel like I'm drowning if I do) and concentrating on what it's saying.. and then I'll feel like someone had been sitting on my bed and just stood up, that movement of the mattress. I also hear giggling, and talking that makes no sense to me - talking not from the television, talking VERY close to my ear. I can't sleep with my back facing out over the room because I get this creepy sensation of someone rushing up behind me.

My body has insane reactions to body temperature. Sometimes I'll be SWELTERING, all but wearing a bathing suit in a house that's at 55 degrees on the thermostat. Sometimes I'll be shivering in 100 degree weather. I'm not physically ill, and I've undergone psychiatric evaluations and I've come up clean. I'm only twenty years old, so it's not like I'm menopausal.

There's a ton more of these odd experiences - like hearing trains at 2.00 in the morning even if there's NO trains anywhere nearby (but this used to be a train-centered town). I don't think it's this house as my family's the only family that's ever owned it, and as it's followed me to other cities and other houses as well.

The only other thing that defies all over explanation, I think, is my memory. I don't remember most of my life - and what I do remember doesn't feel like MY life. Sitting in this room, I KNOW that over there, I was sobbing on the phone with my father during a massive fight, but it feels like a snapshot from someone else's life. Yet, I know I lived it. This is made all the more weird by these dreams I have that feel more familiar, but I've never lived them - one of which is myself in a military hospital from the 50's or 60's. I was born in 1987, and I wasn't in a military hospital EVER - let alone then.

Does anyone have any idea what is going on in my life?

Aedryan Methyus · Posted: Sep Sat 01, 2007 1:01 pm Post subject:

Hi Bookworm. Thanks for sharing your story. Here is a good place to start looking for answers:

Seeing/Hearing/Sensing Dead People? - Get Help Here!

When you had your psychiatric evaluations, did you tell them about everything you've said here or anything else about seeing/hearing/sensing dead people? If so, what did they tell you?

- Aedryan
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Bookworm · Curious About Ghosts Joined: 01 Sep 2007 Posts: 4

oldcloud · Guest

Hau bookworm,
I never got evaluated , but everyone has always told me that I am crazy. Even my best friend. I think you need to check alot of things out,,,before you can say that. I am an electrician by trade and know electric current will make you feel and or dream things, (It stimulates the mind and other things) Just remember every place is different ant will have different sounds or electric fields or pipe banging.
Check it out first.

Mel · Posted: Sep Sun 02, 2007 11:41 pm Post subject:

One problem with schizophrenia there isn't any tests to find out if someone has it or not.

They did do some experiements on people with schizophrenia to see how there brain works. Some of the Drs. said there is a little difference between person with mental illness compared to a "Normal" person. But they also said this wasn't always the case.

Also schizophrenia is a disease that starts out slow then as you get older it hits hard. It's also heriditary (?sp) like you said your bother i think it was had it, then you have high posibility of having it yourself.

Don't get me wrong i do think there are people who can sense things. I also have wonder if there is a connection between people with schizophrenia and a pychic/medium. People with Schizophrenia has said to seen, talked to people who have died.

To get the diagnoses Schizotypal Personality Disorder
all you have to say is that you go out ghost hunting. Or that you have felt things. Suddenly this diagnoses jumps right onto your chart.

For hot flashes or problems with temperature, you may be having hormone problems. This doesn't mean your going through menopause it just means your hormones may be off enough to cause hot flashes. If you are just go on or off birth control can mess with your hormones.

Males also have hormone problems that can cause hot flashes.

There other things that can cause hot flashes, Infection, being overly tired, high blood pressure, stress, pms, depression list goes on and on.

I do know spirits can cause you to feel warm or cold. either by giving you energy or taking away energy. People also can do this, person next to you are always drawing off your energy and giving some. Just sometimes they will give more then recieve. Depends on that person's mood.

Bookworm · Curious About Ghosts Joined: 01 Sep 2007 Posts: 4

Mel · Posted: Sep Mon 03, 2007 1:49 am Post subject:

You are lucky on the PMS, i personally never meet anybody that didn't have problems with pms.

You said your in pain, what is the pain from? It has to be from something that isn't right? Pain itself will cause hotflashes, like i said there are many many things that can cause it. Pain also can cause hallucations.

These are things that can maybe explain what you are going through. I'm not saying they are the reasons.

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